Awaken Cycle 01 - Soul Self-Entry

 I share with you my experience of walking the labyrinth. This experience, as many are, was one of the moments of finding who I was and how to be with what comes up. Each path is unique as each day is a new experience, keeping me in rhythm, teaching me, as one path builds upon another.

Here is one of my experiences I share with you in Soul Self-Entry:

I sit in my practice, the voice file started, I listen, I’m feeling supported. This path is focusing on the heart as a sensing container and clearing past understanding of the heart - the heart as a pump. I’m finding it’s so ingrained in me. I feel the pressure; the illusion is pressing in on me.  I realize I have not given myself a chance to allow and experience those emotions I have held tightly. I’m feeling paralyzed by my emotions yet I continue the practice. Did I ever think it would be otherwise until now? I open up to the possibility and find I accepted being at my crossroad and there could be another way of understanding it.

I go back and remember being supported as I had in the beginning. I can be with it and still feel the parts of me, my nervousness, my thoughts running. I’m feeling my own resistance. My mind takes a stand - I want so much to move forward and transform. I realize I have not given myself a chance to feel those emotions I have held tightly. I’m feeling paralyzed yet I continue the practice. Then something within me shifts as I listen more intently to Kiera’s voice, and allow the words to wash over me. Now being with the practice I am able to relax in to it. My nervousness melts away as does the tension. I come towards the end of the practice, my thoughts have shifted and now I can allow myself to be with the awaken cycle path I’m in and allow it to teach me.

Since doing the awaken stages my journey of self-discovery, through my soul essence sphere and organized containers has brought me to an incredible place in my life, awakening me to see my paralyzed states that were a stopping point I made in my life. I had put up walls so I didn’t feel, not letting myself connect with my emotions, turning in to a repeating scenario that kept me from experiencing life. My frozen paralyzed states of meeting information over time have shifted. I’m able to experience and be with life, shifting and releasing what has constricted me and held me at bay. I’m finding joy in my changes as I stand and face what’s before me, following the flow in my life.

The meeting and the knowing of who I am and meant to be outweighs the challenges that lay before me. With each cycle walked the stronger I get and what it means to be embodied with organized energy in my containers here on earth between Earth and Sky.

I am grateful to have this opportunity to share my journey in Soul-Self Entry and I welcome and support you in yours.

Denise Bigelow