Awaken Cycle 4 - Day 15 revisited

Because of some transitional life events (completion of my doctoral dissertation, new job, moving, etc.) I was advised to take a break on cycle 4 and return to it when I sensed the time as right to do so. I'm starting over now, from the point where I started having trouble in my last round. By trouble, I mean difficulty keeping the practice to an every day, or at least every other day schedule, and a feeling of "working hard" when listening to each recording when I did get to it.

In Awaken Cycle 4, day 15, the focus is on sensing core, and sensing the human field. Creating the ability to distinguish between the two. This feels like it's really helping to maintain a sense of connected self in the midst of all of the influence of the human field around me. Things like culture, media, other people's expectations and energetic influences, and so on. For much of my life, this has been a challenge for me, where I have had a tendency to take on and absorb what is around me, mirroring it in some way, and losing a connection to myself. It's something that I've noticed doing this practice has had a big effect on, in terms of reducing my sense of loss of self in the face of others and the world at large.

Today's practice specifically feels like it's touching into this past vulnerability that I have had, and helping me to parse out who I am, at a soul level, from who others seem to want me to be. It seems to be strengthening the part of me that can know who I am, and maintain this connection even under whatever kind of outside pressure might be there.

As always, I'm thankful for this practice, and the support it offers. I'm looking forward to the journey it will continue to facilitate.

-Dan