Awaken Cycle 3

I had been experience a feeling of 'aloneness', a sense of  “left out” during my most recent time through the 3^rd Stage, Awaken 03.  This misperception, of being alone, began to dissipate during my practice.  Listening to Day 2 I began to see the energetic origins of that experience as a visual image came to me of interrelated energetic boundaries.

 I am snug inside my sphere, my electromagnetic field (sometimes called the ‘aura’), contained by the energetic boundaries surrounding my field.   Around the outside edge of my aura is a beautiful swirling cobalt blue energy, defining and containing me inside my sphere.  From within my field a pulsating energetic wave moves out to meet the electromagnetic field of Earth, which then sends a wave, a communication, back to me.  Through these fields I come into interrelationship with Earth, which in turn pulses, sends and recieves waves to and from the other planets in our solar system. 

This pulsating communication goes out into our Milky Way galaxy and beyond.  It puts me snug in my position, where I fit within the larger picture of the universe, contained in my field, in interrelationship with Earth, through energetic boundaries.

The situation in my life that evoked these feelings, had not changed.   As I listened, and digested the stress, however my perception of 'aloneness' began to wash away.  

“I digest things about me that cause me stress. As I digest, the stress wanes. I am

 with who I am.  The perception of myself that causes me stress, transforms.                                I move with who I am, and rest.”  
 (Quote from Energeticdevelopment.org, Awaken 03, Day 2, copyright Kiera Laike)

As I occupy my pulsating position, it is as if becoming a part of a pulsating chorus, a communication, a beautiful interrelated dance of energies, moving and communicating.  I am anything but left out: rather I’m included in a beyond words amazing pulsating song of communication within the Universe.   

Awaken 02

Each time I listen to the 2^nd Stage daily downloads (Awaken 02) I sense my neurotransmitters balancing: serotonin, GABA, norepinephrine, dopamine coming into balance, creating a state of pleasure, a steady pulse, and an even keel to my energetic and emotional state.  It’s like the pleasure of having had a great workout followed by a hot tub and massage: awake, alert, relaxed. These real time benefits could last a few hours or days -- depending.   The unseen ones are harder to describe. 

I have found no commonly established English words to convey my experience of “being met.”  While being met encompasses the feelings of being ‘seen,’ ‘loved,’ and acknowledged, it is so much more than that.  A deep healing and satisfaction in my relationships occurs as I energetically develop the ability to feel another person deeply getting, sensing, seeing and being with the core of me, the essence of my being.   Energetic development is like becoming an energetic grown up.   It changes how we think and perceive life.  When people in my life act or speak without consideration, I am more likely to see their words and actions for what they are - less likely to fall into emotional traps based on misperceptions.  All my relationships have transformed as I experience the Being Met stage of energetic development.   

Soul-Self Entry, 1st Energetic Developmental Stage

When I was first introduced to the 13 Energetic Developmental Stages of Humans four years ago, I thought “Where would I find the time to fit one more thing in?” That all changed after I experienced the difference the 1^st Stage made: the 15 minutes a day it took to listen to the download was more than worth it. I haven’t stopped since.  Here is a journal entry from the first time I entered the Soul-Self Entry stage in December 2011.

There is a calm sense of holding onto myself - even in the midst of turmoil - a staying with my core self that has been missing.   In the first few weeks of this cycle I’ve had experiences of staying in flow, grounded, connected to myself, to the containers of the star forms and their energy. I’ve experienced staying steady - moving through long lists of daily tasks - a connection to what is deep within, that exists beyond words.   Essence.  Soul essence.  Amazing. Really. Step by step, moving forward, not being overwhelmed - my thoughts, movements and actions emerging out of connection to self.  A quiet satisfaction, a non-exuberant happiness.  An ability to handle things that my children or family do that might normally pull me out of myself, my connection.  But no, this time I stay put, in the face of provocation.  I’ve wanted this for so long.  After so many decades of different meditation practices, I never thought I could have it.  It’s like entering another way of experiencing life, another way of living, and yet everything around me stays the same.  I get images of us, humans - our soul essence entering the body through which these energies flow, allowing connections and communication across space and time.”

I did not understand so much of what I experienced or what was said that first time through the stage.  Yet, I knew with certainty a few things. Energetic development through the 13 stages was unlike anything else I had known.  No other practice had begun processes in me that continued to cascade over months and years after, where the changes didn’t fade over time but rather rooted more solidly within.      

Thank you for reading and being a part of this journey.    Abbe Grossman