4TH Moon Cycle Day#19

Moon Sign in Sagittarius Sun sign in Aires; Inward soul essence path in relation to self corner.
Connecting with the energy of the Lagoon Nebula and awakening to the perception from the aspect of soul essence.

Settling deeply and easily from a relatively scattered space, I notice the vastness of the shift from the intrusion of the human field to a settling into my soul essence being.  The comfort and deep peace fills all the cells of my body and my perceptions are, in turn, bathed by the knowing and sensing of my soul essence.  Thus replacing the intrusive "perceptions" (i.e., distortions) by the off-balancing we are subjected to by the human field.  I in turn look forward to a day filled with grace and ease, knowing I will be able to be with my true self, my soul essence, and not be thrown off by that which is not truth.  Thus my perceptions are clear and true and I move in flow.

I feel the contact, the "meeting" of the energy of the Laguna Nebula as a very comforting and energizing force.  The gathering of my soul essence energy feels very powerful, stronger than ever.

**Follow-up: The day was experienced as a very "flowing" day; felt no struggling or doubting.  All that walking this day of this stage had promised!

Awaken Cycle 4 - Day 15 revisited

Because of some transitional life events (completion of my doctoral dissertation, new job, moving, etc.) I was advised to take a break on cycle 4 and return to it when I sensed the time as right to do so. I'm starting over now, from the point where I started having trouble in my last round. By trouble, I mean difficulty keeping the practice to an every day, or at least every other day schedule, and a feeling of "working hard" when listening to each recording when I did get to it.

In Awaken Cycle 4, day 15, the focus is on sensing core, and sensing the human field. Creating the ability to distinguish between the two. This feels like it's really helping to maintain a sense of connected self in the midst of all of the influence of the human field around me. Things like culture, media, other people's expectations and energetic influences, and so on. For much of my life, this has been a challenge for me, where I have had a tendency to take on and absorb what is around me, mirroring it in some way, and losing a connection to myself. It's something that I've noticed doing this practice has had a big effect on, in terms of reducing my sense of loss of self in the face of others and the world at large.

Today's practice specifically feels like it's touching into this past vulnerability that I have had, and helping me to parse out who I am, at a soul level, from who others seem to want me to be. It seems to be strengthening the part of me that can know who I am, and maintain this connection even under whatever kind of outside pressure might be there.

As always, I'm thankful for this practice, and the support it offers. I'm looking forward to the journey it will continue to facilitate.

-Dan

Awaken Cycle 4 - Alignment of 3 in Reflective movement - Day 17 and 18

During these days, the focus of the practice is on connecting with and taking in the potency of my soul essence - and having permission to remember who I am. For me, these days seemed like a powerful nexus of transformation. Physically, I began to feel a lot of body energy, and a sense of fullness and activation, which has been challenging to fully integrate (finding myself taking a day or two between practice sessions). However, despite these challenges to integrating my soul essence energy, I have become aware of a heightened ability to know what I want in relationship, and to advocate for what is important to me. Overall, a greater sense of self and connection to who I am.

Emotionally, I feel very affected by the taking in of my soul essence potency. I realize that this is something that I've given up or lost in various ways throughout my early life and development. Being able to take it back and find it again now is beginning to reinvigorate my sense of hope that I can create a more satisfying life, and start find my path more clearly again.

A lot of exciting things have been happening in my life around these days as well, such as the completion of my PhD process with the defense of my dissertation, during which time my parents came into town to support me. It was interesting that I found I was much more able to express my needs and desires with them than I have ever been before, and I credit that in large part to the deepening connection with myself that this practice has been bringing. I have had a tendency to be a "people pleaser" in the past, and recently I've found that I can be far more comfortable standing in my own self in situations of conflict, with the feeling of being supported by a greater "fullness" of my soul essence within my physical structure.

This practice has been challenging, but even though I'm not perfect in how I've made my way through it, I feel enriched by the development it has supported within me. My heartful thanks to its originator, Kiera, and to the practice itself.

Deepening into reflective relationship,
Dan

Awaken Cycle 04 The Alignment of Three in Reflective Movement

In Awaken 04 walking day 23, Soul Essence in Relationship to Others corner. Gather soul essence and leave what we become for others that was not our soul essence. Sensing, experiencing, knowing the container.

Through the container of the star form, my first realization through my sensing starts with intense focus on -  the ability to tease out ourselves from others in perfect harmony.

Focusing on this supports me in knowing there is this part of me intertwined with others. I come into full acceptance of what this means on a sensing level. In the beginning I could see it but not grasp exactly what this was and as I reflected deeper within myself, this knowing takes root.  Seeing in to the reflection, I base who I am from others responses. This knowing I have not met so clearly until now,

What proceeds to come up latter after I had a conversation with a friend was a nagging re-occurrence of what was said. I stopped ruminating about what was said and turned my attention back to what the stages were teaching me…. know the difference between myself and others.  I looked again at the hinted suggestion from the conversation and asked myself – what part of this is me that is making me feel unsettled from the conversation. The suggestion was carrying me to another place I didn’t want to go, I kept fighting it and was torn.

I buckled down, and I was able to see what has brought me to this struggle. I was touched by what was, that was brought up from my past, feeling the pull to be back in that place. I was not being with what is as an energetic being. With this being seen I was able to settle and move on, knowing the difference between myself and other. I sensed, experienced and knew my container.

I find having the discipline and diligence in doing these stages and having the support of the star form has brought me to continuously focus deeper within myself of who I really am - an energetic developmental being in a spiraling universe.

Awaken Cycle 4, Day 10

Sharing my experience of Day 10 for Awaken Cycle 4...

 Kiera talks about what a difference a day makes. Shifting from Body energy path to relationship to others can be a difficult shift as we are more under literal meaning of cancer of the crab (cancer) was crushed under Hercules foot. Know the energy in the star form will move you through the day and allow you to avoid being crushed (figuratively and literally) by your relationship to others. She talks about what a difference a day makes – how we’ve all experienced a day where one day you are on top of the world and the next we’ve completely failed at what we were doing. This often happens when the energetic days line up like this. Kiera assures us contained in the star form we will move through and not be crushed.

Hearing these words wash over me, I relate to what she says about being on top of the world one day and come crashing down the next. I think often we aren’t aware of this influence that others can have on us on an energetic level. I feel how supportive the star form is and know I need to keep releasing any resistance to staying in the star form 24/7. Feeling the star form support my perception and how it allows us to move to a different position before being crushed by the movement of others.

Awaken 04 Alignment of 3 in Reflective Movement

Day 7

I would like to share with you this day of walking because of the deep healing that this paticular
day holds. There are no words that really can describe this experience it really is something to be
energetically witnessed but none the less for those of you that are interested in reading my experience
I will do my best.

As I start walking the words of Kiera wash over me like a wave from the ocean I meet the Sun,Moon,
Pulse fields, solar winds and immediately sense the energetic  support of the starform. Settling in and walking I meet the 2 stars of Gemini as I pulse out to meet them a sense of security comes in, these
2 bright stars support us in releasing fear and also supports us in releasing from the center of our head allowing us to have a deep sense of being within myself deep within. I'm able to release fear which
allows myself my soul self to snuggle down deep inside and  I am settled so deep inside that I can
breathe feeling every part of who I am feeling very alive. Kiera guides me to Release fear and gather the Light in the darkness and move with the light in the darkness, releasing fear allowing myself to gather to me that of who I am. Deep nero healing in the cetacoline and melatonine is occurring as the center of my head is being cleared of fear that keeps us from our nero balance. As I clear and breathe and pulse in and out  a better sense of knowing who I am emerges allowing me to be with who I am in the real time world, I don't have to try to be anything more than who I am or anything less. I am
balanced and I just am, allowing me to move as sun sign Aries pulls us to the alignment of 3 in reflective relationship. In my moving I pulse out and am able to meet others in this balanced state as I
am in the support of the starform throughout the day and into the night. Knowing and Sensing deep healing within. Balanced
                                         Ever Gathering, 
                                                               Candace

Stage 4 - Day 4 and 5

 I was drawn to go back and share with you day's 4 and 5 from Stage 4, I am currently ending Stage  13(May 2016). These 2 days in this stage have a  connection with me, I have suffered for years with upper back pain. The healing in these 2 days are sensing layer in the Human Field Energy States! I found this very interesting the first time I walked this stage! My upper back for years had always tightened up when I feel pressure from people and situations that I was experiencing that made me feel like I was paddling a canoe in the river against the natural flow! The healing of relaxing, opening upper back, breathe in and charging the upper back help! Also being with my fascia, allowing energy to flow into my fascia, wow I can already feel the relief!

In the past I did not understand all of the body connections with the energy I encountered every day and it's effects on me! Further I was always taught to take medication or rub something on the area that was all tightened/tensed up. I now sense, feel and know releasing energy that is not meant to be there, then putting energy in that is meant to be there is a healing, not just a temporary fix!

I feel truly blessed to be blogging my experiences with you!!

Awaken 04

Awaken 04 Alignment of 3 in Reflective Movement was an interesting growing experience for me of gathering more of my soul essence and sensing.  Days 14, 15 and 16 help with sensing.  While listening to Day 16, I became aware that I was actually sensing more often than I realized. 

Along with the sensing, I felt a tingling in my hands, as I often do when listening to the Stages or doing Embodied Practice.  Feeling the energy in my hands was what I first felt fairly early on when I started taking Embodied Practice classes.  I still like feeling the tingle when listening to the Stages.

Awaken 4 - Alignment of 3 in Reflective Movement

Hello Everyone,

I was drawn to Day 22 so I revisited this meditation in preparation for this blog post.  I’m currently in the 13^th cycle (May 2016) so it was interesting that Day 22 was calling to me.   This particular day focuses on “releasing the need to remain as something that someone else has turned you into”.  I’ve struggled for a long time knowing that I was not in alignment with my soul essence, not engaging with the world and others as my essence.  We all know what things this leads to (e.g. self-judgement, anxiety, people pleasing, using force (rather than flow)  . . . an unfortunate path.  This stage helps us release who we are not and gain who we are through the continual gathering of our soul essence.  Looking back 9 stage (from the 13^th cycle to the 4^th) I’m truly amazed at the changes that have occurred within me, how much more of my essence I’ve gathered and how much deeper I know myself.  I now step into my life each day with confidence as I continue to gather my soul essence and understand my magnificence.  Leaving behind who we are not is a critical step.  Awaken 4 helps us recognize the truth from the lie about what we’ve become. We are guided to release the lie and regain the truth.  As you continue to gather your soul essence subtle changes continue to occur and improve your life in many ways.  The beauty of the 13 Awaken stages is that it does the work for you.  I previously followed several paths using force to control my thoughts or shut them off.  This practice uses flow and lovingly guides you to your energetic development. 

Awaken 4 (and all the others) are a loving, beautiful gift from Kiera for us all.  I cannot thank her enough for all she has done for my life allowing me to regain my soul essence.