"Somebody"

The other day I was listening to a friend’s playlist and a song called “somebody” came on. While listening to the inspiring lyrics and singer I woke up to the devolution of the assignment of meaning to words.

I realized that now a days people think being somebody is a good thing. We hear it all the time, “I want to be somebody … (when I grow up, important, inspiring, etc.).” But the truth is, striving to be somebody has devolved us so far from the magnificence of who we truly could be.

Merriam-Webster defines somebody as; a person who is not known, named, or specified. One or some person of unspecified or indefinite identity.

Somewhere along the way we lost sight of the importance of being and knowing precisely who we are.

Use of language in culture continues to pull us out of relationship with ourselves. Just like the assigned meaning of “somebody” was distorted to be portrayed as something desirable - similar to how barbie dolls are now staged as models on makeup commercials for young girls - misguiding people away from who they are to become an unknown, unnamed, indefinitely unidentified person… talk about identity crisis.

Merriam-Webster definition of identity crisis; personal psychosocial conflict especially in adolescence that involves confusion about one’s social role and often a sense of loss of continuity to one’s personality.

“Some” body in embodied practice means that we are without our complete energetic development. This leaves us only partially with our body and our knowing of who we are, ever longing to complete our development. The devolved assignment of the meaning of “somebody” pulls us down a path of desiring and searching to be “somebody” other than who we are, rather than fully taking form in who we are and expressing ourselves completely – becoming embodied.

Your individual energetic development is a natural process that brings you into a complete relationship with who you are. This process of becoming embodied is unlike any other practice because it connects you to who you are across time and space.                                                                   

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Awaken 03: Living in Interrelated Energetic Boundaries

"The excitement of this Awakened Labyrinth (like life) is similar to the  

beginning of a carnival ride..."  

- Kiera D. Laike

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In this stage I journaled about what I experienced while walking each day; emotionally, energetically, physically, and cognitively. Many intense emotions emerged during this labyrinth and I also began waking up to many realizations in my life. As I reread my journal entries from this awaken stage I see the bigger picture of where I was in my development and I truly see how exciting a time it was for me. In those moments I reflected in my journal that it felt like I was in a storm and absolutely relate this to a carnival ride. In the Relationship to Self corner I wrote;

"A03 - Day 15:

Frustration, today the storm may not pass... Being within the Starform, soon the storm will pass... Delayed gratification."

The storm did pass! Having never learned to hold or experience boundaries before walking Awaken 03 I felt many fears and frustrations. It was, and still is hard for me to face how and why I have gotten hurt in life (emotionally, physically, etc.), but being in the Starform gives me the support and reflection I need to move through and find the point of origin for each experience. Once I know this I can understand why certain things transpired and I am able to release them. Another entry:

"I felt my position on the path of today. And all those fears and frustrations and confusions were quieted with the knowing that I had moved through, contained in the star form, in communication with my essence."

"Sinking into and trusting the star form brings about a peace and nurturing with my essence. 

My breath has been moving with the practice more now and I notice that when I'm fully with the star form it improves. 

I've sensed the reflection of my essence as it emerges from the flow of creation, I sense my perceptions of others strongly and feel my containers. This is translated in a way that I feel stronger as a person and more capable of holding my ground in conflicting situations with my essence."

Looking back now I see how far I have come and am so happy that I have stayed with my development! I am also saddened by how I have suffered over the years and grieve all the experiences I could have prevented had I learned how to energetically develop. Then I would have had my energetic containers and boundaries. 

We are naturally meant to learn and develop energetically as humans, but our DNA's ability to evolve and our development as energetic beings has been influenced and misdirected over thousands of years. Walking the 13 Energetic Developmental Stages has moved me through the awakening process and continues to bring me back into my ability to evolve and develop energetically, ever supporting me in all aspects of my life. 

Awaken 02: Taking Form and Being Met

  "Being Met determines the energetic core that the personality forms around. It also ultimately determines our ability to self reference." - Kiera D. Laike, IRW

Awaken 02: Day 18

Walking the Soul Essence Path in the Energetic Body States Corner of Day 18 was a day of great relaxation and support, moving from my path of yesterday where I released my cognitive focus and just danced with my soul essence sensing. At first, a little confusion did come up and I had a hard time breathing with the practice - especially when moving from exhale to pause - but as I kept walking, releasing confusion, and being relaxed, my breath and practice moved into a sweet and calm rhythm. Charging the governor vessel (back) and conception vessel (front). Relaxed and supported.

Sometimes when I walk I sense and know that the energy is creating change, and that it will take time to emerge in real time and real world experiences. In walking Awaken 02, I realized how cognitive thought is the result of energy at work long before the thought arrives. Through this knowing I worked on releasing cognitive awareness and focused on settling into my practice and the star forms. Often times I felt confused, and unsure of what would happen next. As I continued to trust and be in the star form, I began to sense and feel a shift within me. Most of the time I could not put into words what I was feeling or experiencing in my practice, and often I would cry and release strong emotions as they emerged. This was a beautiful and cleansing experience.

The issue I worked on during Awaken 02 was self judgment and having compassion for myself. Self judgment weighed heavy on me as thoughts that were the result of energy not in affinity with my essence set in motion long before, leading to the creation of those judgmental thoughts. As I came to understand this, I continued to be compassionate towards myself and patient with my practice. This was not easy! But I could feel the relationship I have with myself building.

The support of walking Awaken 02 and the work of gathering my essence continues to emerge and create change in my life. I have since moved into the next Awaken Stage and now, when these judgmental thoughts emerge, I am able to sense that they are not a part of my essence. This ability to recognize the difference has given me space to understand the origin of these thoughts and has moved me much closer to my essence, free of judgment.

💜 Sarah 

Soul Self Entry: Walking Day 1

On Day 1 I was with the experience of resetting my physical frequency to my soul essence, releasing fear of the abyss, and being with what came up. This experience of walking Day 1 was like a homecoming to me. I could feel my physical body re-syncing to the frequency of my essence. I felt like a tingle in my limbs and a pulse though my core. I remember smiling to myself with joy for this new sensation as I sat in my practice.

Moving through this lunar labyrinth was a warm and nurturing experience, and being with my body felt like the beginning of a new and wonderful relationship. I held myself that day joyful and grateful for taking this first step.

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Welcome to Energetic Development and thank you for joining me in my reflection of my journey through Day 1 of the first developmental stage! It is so sweet to remember my experience and share this exciting day with you. I have since completed Awaken 01 and am now walking Awaken 02: Taking Form and Being Met. As I walk these first two stages my relationship with myself grows and develops in many beautiful ways that I look forward to continue sharing with you here on our Energetic Development blog.

Lovingly, Sarah