Because of some transitional life events (completion of my doctoral dissertation, new job, moving, etc.) I was advised to take a break on cycle 4 and return to it when I sensed the time as right to do so. I'm starting over now, from the point where I started having trouble in my last round. By trouble, I mean difficulty keeping the practice to an every day, or at least every other day schedule, and a feeling of "working hard" when listening to each recording when I did get to it.
In Awaken Cycle 4, day 15, the focus is on sensing core, and sensing the human field. Creating the ability to distinguish between the two. This feels like it's really helping to maintain a sense of connected self in the midst of all of the influence of the human field around me. Things like culture, media, other people's expectations and energetic influences, and so on. For much of my life, this has been a challenge for me, where I have had a tendency to take on and absorb what is around me, mirroring it in some way, and losing a connection to myself. It's something that I've noticed doing this practice has had a big effect on, in terms of reducing my sense of loss of self in the face of others and the world at large.
Today's practice specifically feels like it's touching into this past vulnerability that I have had, and helping me to parse out who I am, at a soul level, from who others seem to want me to be. It seems to be strengthening the part of me that can know who I am, and maintain this connection even under whatever kind of outside pressure might be there.
As always, I'm thankful for this practice, and the support it offers. I'm looking forward to the journey it will continue to facilitate.
-Dan
Blogs are written by students of Human Energetic Development(Sensology). Sensology takes humans beyond science, religion, self-help, philosophy, and new age enlightenment to develop their organized structures of human photon light in human body form. Each bloggers journey has been unique, yet resulted in positive change. The core of change emerged from a diligent study and practice of the 13 Energetic and Developmental Stages of Humans.
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Sunday, October 2, 2016
Tuesday, August 2, 2016
Awaken Cycle 4 - Alignment of 3 in Reflective movement - Day 17 and 18
During these days, the focus of the practice is on connecting with and taking in the potency of my soul essence - and having permission to remember who I am. For me, these days seemed like a powerful nexus of transformation. Physically, I began to feel a lot of body energy, and a sense of fullness and activation, which has been challenging to fully integrate (finding myself taking a day or two between practice sessions). However, despite these challenges to integrating my soul essence energy, I have become aware of a heightened ability to know what I want in relationship, and to advocate for what is important to me. Overall, a greater sense of self and connection to who I am.
Emotionally, I feel very affected by the taking in of my soul essence potency. I realize that this is something that I've given up or lost in various ways throughout my early life and development. Being able to take it back and find it again now is beginning to reinvigorate my sense of hope that I can create a more satisfying life, and start find my path more clearly again.
A lot of exciting things have been happening in my life around these days as well, such as the completion of my PhD process with the defense of my dissertation, during which time my parents came into town to support me. It was interesting that I found I was much more able to express my needs and desires with them than I have ever been before, and I credit that in large part to the deepening connection with myself that this practice has been bringing. I have had a tendency to be a "people pleaser" in the past, and recently I've found that I can be far more comfortable standing in my own self in situations of conflict, with the feeling of being supported by a greater "fullness" of my soul essence within my physical structure.
This practice has been challenging, but even though I'm not perfect in how I've made my way through it, I feel enriched by the development it has supported within me. My heartful thanks to its originator, Kiera, and to the practice itself.
Deepening into reflective relationship,
Dan
Emotionally, I feel very affected by the taking in of my soul essence potency. I realize that this is something that I've given up or lost in various ways throughout my early life and development. Being able to take it back and find it again now is beginning to reinvigorate my sense of hope that I can create a more satisfying life, and start find my path more clearly again.
A lot of exciting things have been happening in my life around these days as well, such as the completion of my PhD process with the defense of my dissertation, during which time my parents came into town to support me. It was interesting that I found I was much more able to express my needs and desires with them than I have ever been before, and I credit that in large part to the deepening connection with myself that this practice has been bringing. I have had a tendency to be a "people pleaser" in the past, and recently I've found that I can be far more comfortable standing in my own self in situations of conflict, with the feeling of being supported by a greater "fullness" of my soul essence within my physical structure.
This practice has been challenging, but even though I'm not perfect in how I've made my way through it, I feel enriched by the development it has supported within me. My heartful thanks to its originator, Kiera, and to the practice itself.
Deepening into reflective relationship,
Dan
Tuesday, May 3, 2016
Awaken 3: Living in Interrelated Energetic Boundaries - Day 20
As it was suggested in today's recording (Awaken 3: Living in Interrelated Energetic Boundaries - Day 20), I am one of those for whom the last 4 days of practice have been quite intense and transformational. Gathering soul essence within the container of the star form, both personal and professional changes have been happening for me in at an accelerated rate in my day to day life. Lots of opportunities have come my way, and with them not only excitement, but also inner conflict, overwhelm, and confusion. Doing today's practice helped in a big way to feel contained within these changes that are happening - to feel supported by an energetic communicative relationship with the powerful energy of the Sun.
In today's practice: with my soul essence deeply with each breath out, settling into and deepening the embodiment of my soul essence, and with each breath in, being with the soul essence of the Sun. Knowing through being with, self and other, in communication.
What today's practice truly impressed upon me was the power of this interrelated communication. Although the forming relationship with the essence of the Sun does not have any words to it at the moment for me, there is a striking difference in the way that I am feeling, and a sense of that relationship supporting me as I move through my day.
Overall, I'm discovering an arising sense of peace with the intensity of transformation of the issues I have brought to the practice, and a deeper knowing and sensing, beyond words, of who I am - in interrelationship.
In today's practice: with my soul essence deeply with each breath out, settling into and deepening the embodiment of my soul essence, and with each breath in, being with the soul essence of the Sun. Knowing through being with, self and other, in communication.
What today's practice truly impressed upon me was the power of this interrelated communication. Although the forming relationship with the essence of the Sun does not have any words to it at the moment for me, there is a striking difference in the way that I am feeling, and a sense of that relationship supporting me as I move through my day.
Overall, I'm discovering an arising sense of peace with the intensity of transformation of the issues I have brought to the practice, and a deeper knowing and sensing, beyond words, of who I am - in interrelationship.
Monday, March 21, 2016
Second Labyrinth: Taking Form and Being Met - Day 27
Coming into today's practice, I felt a great deal of what I would have understood at another point in my life as "Depression" - a sadness without particular content, which was attaching itself to everything from my relationship to my professional life.
In this practice, the first shift in this experience came in the lead-in part of the practice, releasing down intrusion on my body energy by the human field with the inhale. I felt myself and my body letting go of some kind of collapsing inward pressure that I was not aware up until this practice. The heaviness of the experience began to depart, and I noticed a sense of relief taking the place of the sadness that I had been feeling.
The second shift to this experience came during the walking of the inward body energy path in the human field corner. With the pause of the breath working with body energy changing from contraction to pulse, there was an additional relaxation. Then, working with pulsing out to meet with the inhale, and in to meet with the exhale, I felt a sense of coming into a place of relationship, and the departure of a sense of isolation and withdrawal from others that had accompanied by earlier feeling.
Overall, my experience of today's practice was a sense of being freed from the trapped form of contraction that I came to see as my natural inward pulse having been imposed upon by human field intrusion and turned into collapse. I felt the sense of leaving that form, and entering into a capacity for more pulse - inward AND outward - in order to meet both self and world. I started to see the inward pulse (including a deep inward pulse) as something distinct from inward, stuck, collapse. I could see the deep inward pulse as part of the journey, that when protected and contained from intrusion would lead me into a deeper inward meeting, as part of the inward-outward pulse-relationship of being Met.
In body,
Dan
In this practice, the first shift in this experience came in the lead-in part of the practice, releasing down intrusion on my body energy by the human field with the inhale. I felt myself and my body letting go of some kind of collapsing inward pressure that I was not aware up until this practice. The heaviness of the experience began to depart, and I noticed a sense of relief taking the place of the sadness that I had been feeling.
The second shift to this experience came during the walking of the inward body energy path in the human field corner. With the pause of the breath working with body energy changing from contraction to pulse, there was an additional relaxation. Then, working with pulsing out to meet with the inhale, and in to meet with the exhale, I felt a sense of coming into a place of relationship, and the departure of a sense of isolation and withdrawal from others that had accompanied by earlier feeling.
Overall, my experience of today's practice was a sense of being freed from the trapped form of contraction that I came to see as my natural inward pulse having been imposed upon by human field intrusion and turned into collapse. I felt the sense of leaving that form, and entering into a capacity for more pulse - inward AND outward - in order to meet both self and world. I started to see the inward pulse (including a deep inward pulse) as something distinct from inward, stuck, collapse. I could see the deep inward pulse as part of the journey, that when protected and contained from intrusion would lead me into a deeper inward meeting, as part of the inward-outward pulse-relationship of being Met.
In body,
Dan
Thursday, February 4, 2016
Awaken Cycle 1, Day 15 - Soul Self Entry
Day 15 of the first awaken cycle brought up a lot of strong feelings for me - first of grief, and then as the practice continued, of a deep sense of comfort, rest, and settling.
The support of releasing stress and attachment to past traumas at first led my awareness to lingering "stuck" feelings: grief, pain, and contraction that my system was holding on to, left over from traumas in my life both big and small. As I focused on releasing these through the practice, sensations came up for me, as well as memories, but as I continued listening and working with my breath and the support of Kiera's voice and the statements of intention for the day, the sting started to leave these hurting places, and I began to feel more at ease and at peace.
Around the time that I was going through the midpoint of the first Awaken cycle, I also noticed my digestion starting to improve. I have tended to have intestinal problems and discomfort throughout my life, but at this point, those started getting a lot better.
A lot has changed for me as I've been going through this process of Energetic Development, but I chose day 15 to write about because it was really special to me, and quite profound. It brought me a lot of comfort and peace, and I hope it can bring the same to you.
The support of releasing stress and attachment to past traumas at first led my awareness to lingering "stuck" feelings: grief, pain, and contraction that my system was holding on to, left over from traumas in my life both big and small. As I focused on releasing these through the practice, sensations came up for me, as well as memories, but as I continued listening and working with my breath and the support of Kiera's voice and the statements of intention for the day, the sting started to leave these hurting places, and I began to feel more at ease and at peace.
Around the time that I was going through the midpoint of the first Awaken cycle, I also noticed my digestion starting to improve. I have tended to have intestinal problems and discomfort throughout my life, but at this point, those started getting a lot better.
A lot has changed for me as I've been going through this process of Energetic Development, but I chose day 15 to write about because it was really special to me, and quite profound. It brought me a lot of comfort and peace, and I hope it can bring the same to you.
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