Awaken Cycle 1, Day 6

   In support of anyone that has chosen to walk also, I'd like to share my experience with you reflecting to you my souls journey of walking and the true life experiences and changes that have occurred due to energetically developing.

Today as I am in the support of the starform I move in charging in the quaderant of relationship to self in the body energy layer of the labrinth as I wait and charge to get as full of sense of myself as I can. Working with each finger as I charge I work with my pinky charging and accepting what the small little movements of the fascia and muscles are reflecting back to me and are teaching me about myself. As I walk I move I am now working with my ring finger charging to better understand what my  body was told about who I am- as I move and work through I sense the information and understand that I feel that I was nothing, sensing the intensity of the emotions I work to release anything that comes forward. Walking and now working with my pointer in communication of the perception about what my body energy is telling me- in my sensing I feel that I'm not worth it as I am with this perception grief fills every part of me releasing grief and allowing my body to be with my sensing as I keep moving and releasing fear of  bodys sense of self I can feel this release and am able to move forward feeling relieved.There is also a knowing and understanding that comes to me and as I relese fear the intesity releases also. Being held in the container of the starform I can sense the support in my feet acknowledging it and allowing the support I sense the surge of support move in my feet up my legs supporting my pelvis and back as I am being supported in this energetic starform it holds me as it supports me in awakening and supporting change. I sense the container and I feel cuddled, safe, and am at ease as I allow my body to communicate to the starform and the starform to communicate to my body.
I have support and am feeling very happy. Even through out the day I acknowledge the starform and again embrace the support knowing change is occurring.

Soul-Self Entry, 1st Energetic Developmental Stage

When I was first introduced to the 13 Energetic Developmental Stages of Humans four years ago, I thought “Where would I find the time to fit one more thing in?” That all changed after I experienced the difference the 1^st Stage made: the 15 minutes a day it took to listen to the download was more than worth it. I haven’t stopped since.  Here is a journal entry from the first time I entered the Soul-Self Entry stage in December 2011.

There is a calm sense of holding onto myself - even in the midst of turmoil - a staying with my core self that has been missing.   In the first few weeks of this cycle I’ve had experiences of staying in flow, grounded, connected to myself, to the containers of the star forms and their energy. I’ve experienced staying steady - moving through long lists of daily tasks - a connection to what is deep within, that exists beyond words.   Essence.  Soul essence.  Amazing. Really. Step by step, moving forward, not being overwhelmed - my thoughts, movements and actions emerging out of connection to self.  A quiet satisfaction, a non-exuberant happiness.  An ability to handle things that my children or family do that might normally pull me out of myself, my connection.  But no, this time I stay put, in the face of provocation.  I’ve wanted this for so long.  After so many decades of different meditation practices, I never thought I could have it.  It’s like entering another way of experiencing life, another way of living, and yet everything around me stays the same.  I get images of us, humans - our soul essence entering the body through which these energies flow, allowing connections and communication across space and time.”

I did not understand so much of what I experienced or what was said that first time through the stage.  Yet, I knew with certainty a few things. Energetic development through the 13 stages was unlike anything else I had known.  No other practice had begun processes in me that continued to cascade over months and years after, where the changes didn’t fade over time but rather rooted more solidly within.      

Thank you for reading and being a part of this journey.    Abbe Grossman

Awaken Cycle 1 - Soul Self Entry Day 5

Day 5:  Walking between two stars and feeling the conflict of moving into our sensing selves.  The first time I went through the Energetic Developmental Stages I just went with whatever I was experiencing.  I didn’t really understand what was said or what I was feeling, if I even was aware of feeling anything.  I do remember appreciating Kiera mentioning, at the end of Day 5 in Awaken – 01, that cognitive understanding of energetic development is not the beginning, it is the last.

Now I am on my third time walking the Stages, currently midway through Stage 5.  Looking back on Stage 1 this time through I had a different experience.  Day 5 in Awaken – 01 is walked in the Sensing Path of the Relationship to Self-Corner.  This time I had information come to me that I had been seeking regarding myself.  It came to me through sensing, just kind of popped into my consciousness.  It felt right and good.  It was really neat to get such a clear answer.

This experience was much different from my first, where I listened and just went with the flow.  I think each person’s experience will be unique to them, whether it be their first, second or more.  Enjoy it is special however you receive it.

Cindy Harris