Awaken 03: Living in Interrelated Energetic Boundaries

"The excitement of this Awakened Labyrinth (like life) is similar to the  

beginning of a carnival ride..."  

- Kiera D. Laike

www.energeticdevelopment.org 

In this stage I journaled about what I experienced while walking each day; emotionally, energetically, physically, and cognitively. Many intense emotions emerged during this labyrinth and I also began waking up to many realizations in my life. As I reread my journal entries from this awaken stage I see the bigger picture of where I was in my development and I truly see how exciting a time it was for me. In those moments I reflected in my journal that it felt like I was in a storm and absolutely relate this to a carnival ride. In the Relationship to Self corner I wrote;

"A03 - Day 15:

Frustration, today the storm may not pass... Being within the Starform, soon the storm will pass... Delayed gratification."

The storm did pass! Having never learned to hold or experience boundaries before walking Awaken 03 I felt many fears and frustrations. It was, and still is hard for me to face how and why I have gotten hurt in life (emotionally, physically, etc.), but being in the Starform gives me the support and reflection I need to move through and find the point of origin for each experience. Once I know this I can understand why certain things transpired and I am able to release them. Another entry:

"I felt my position on the path of today. And all those fears and frustrations and confusions were quieted with the knowing that I had moved through, contained in the star form, in communication with my essence."

"Sinking into and trusting the star form brings about a peace and nurturing with my essence. 

My breath has been moving with the practice more now and I notice that when I'm fully with the star form it improves. 

I've sensed the reflection of my essence as it emerges from the flow of creation, I sense my perceptions of others strongly and feel my containers. This is translated in a way that I feel stronger as a person and more capable of holding my ground in conflicting situations with my essence."

Looking back now I see how far I have come and am so happy that I have stayed with my development! I am also saddened by how I have suffered over the years and grieve all the experiences I could have prevented had I learned how to energetically develop. Then I would have had my energetic containers and boundaries. 

We are naturally meant to learn and develop energetically as humans, but our DNA's ability to evolve and our development as energetic beings has been influenced and misdirected over thousands of years. Walking the 13 Energetic Developmental Stages has moved me through the awakening process and continues to bring me back into my ability to evolve and develop energetically, ever supporting me in all aspects of my life. 

Awaken 06 Reflective Relationship

Awaken 06- Reflective Relationship Day 10

Today as I  write about my experience I have alot of sadness that us humans don't have this Reflective Relationship and we don't even know what it is exactly we are not born into a container that reflects this to us. In human relationships we know manipulation, jealousy, and we are used everyday to give over a part of our selves because there isn't reflective relationship. In this lifetime I have been manipulated like so many that if you want to be "loved" then I had to turn myself over to someone that misused me never respected me and gave me false support. Being so wrapped up in that way of "love" it left me very sad, never feeling good enough and I remained empty and always pleasing others. Walking this labrynth awakens me to being in  Reflective Relationship

The Starform that I meet today is Sun sign Gemini, Moon sign Virgo, flux fields, solar winds.
Body energy opens and meets the starform I always seem to have to release grief of meeting the starform because this is true support.  Working with my nero pathways supported by the starform i move and Reflective pool fills as I release down I am balanced my grounding begins to clear and balance itself. I am met with Gama Virginius  I reflect to Gama Virginius, My body energy still pool reflects and Gamma Virginius reflects back to me. As the reflection comes in like a gentle wave it feels gentle, kind helping me to know and understand reflection  it is very comforting, there is a longing deep inside to be here and know. As it reflects to me it awakens me to Reflection. sensing Gama Virginius I am gently spoken to not by words but through an energetic wave of information and in my Soul Self I understand this gentle loving way that I have so longed for.
             Awakening to Reflective Relationship feeling accepted and truely cared for being filled deep inside that words cannot express. Deep gratitude for this reflection allowing me to be filled with understanding and knowing of true reflection and being with .

In my awakening,  Candace 

Awaken Cycle 6, Day 5 - Reflective Relationship

Kiera talks about how we all have a part of ourselves we reflect and put out there; separate from us like the moon separated from earth that circles us and reflects back.

I feel the support of the star form. This is my third time through this stage, I recall the first and second time I did this stage – the part that was orbiting me was a very critical and unloving part of myself. The reflection that is there now feels like a more pure reflection of who I am and definitely is not critical. I think in the past I was caught up in my cognitive brain trying to make sense of what was happening to me at the time.  It was very difficult at the time to receive the reflection and I felt a lot of grief coming up. My experience this time feels more calm, grounded and solid. I have a calm knowing and sense there is not as much distortion in my reflection.